my days seem so long and endless…
Tuesday, November 21st, 2006HAVEN
deleterious, poisonous. injurous, name it, is the right term for an outcast man like me. i really feel emptiness right now… why? because no one i can turn to. no one is tapping my shoulder when i’m down. no one is bothering me when i need to be disturbed in a while and no one i can disturb in my liesure times. no one is annoying me especially when i’m concentrately rushing and working with my hectic damn thing. no one is creating noise in good times and i cant create noise by myself. no one is sharing secrets with me and i cant share secrets too. there are persons, a very human who always accompany me but just for a fucking minute. i feel so rejected…cast off… i’m totally discarded and soon be useless…
please send me one who can lift me….hehehe… hurtful
people hate me. people abhor me. i’m like dirty man begging for nothing. i’m like a beggar who is unfortunate to be blessed. what is going on bullshit… what is wrong with me. do i look nasty and maniac? do people feel infuriated when they see me? why?
for now, i let go of it… so i can survive and breath freely. if they cant appreciate the whole of me, i dont need them…hehehe parang bata lang…
